Sunday, September 28, 2025

We the People Part 2 - Character Matters

{This post contains affiliate links and is dedicated to my first cousin Holly.  :) }

I have long been impacted by character.

Growing up, I saw inimately the idea of switching in a moment.  My Mum would be madder than a hornet at me, spitting mad in fact and in my face.  If  the phonoe rang or someone happened to kncocked at n the  front door, immediatly a different person would emerge and sound and look lovely, sweet.

Time after time I expereinced this behavoire.  It continues even today with the loved one not even acting as though they remember an event where they raged, said inappropriate things and hurt an already non existant realtionsihp.

Growing up with that as my baseline for normal, I am very affected when I see this type of behavior.   it shows up in diferent places at different times and looks diferent in the lives of different people.

I care about what someone does when no one's looking.  It matters to me, because as I read the old and new testaments I see it matters to God, too.  Not that doing well can subsititue for knwoing beyond a shoadow of a doubet that you're adored; that HAS to come first or we struggle with all srots of things.

When I came to understand I was loved by the Creator af all good things, I soon realized there was a LOT I didn't know about basic living.  I wasn't exactly raised in a barn, but my parents were very busy with other things and mostly left me to learn on my own.

Quest for Character by Charles Swindoll

Mr Germann forver changed my life during that one semester (okay..two) in bible college.  Oh, how he was passionate about character and about ROTC.  I felt SO challenged by him to keep reaching for excellence in my life God's daugther.

Paul Washer made me shiver with his messages given at a friends' bible school.  WOW did he raisse the bar for me in a bunch of ways.

Later in life as I sought to undertsand my loved one's switching (going from calm to horratiously angered in a split second), Arthur Burk shed a lot of light on the subject and gave me some tools to begin understanding how to deal with the switching in my midst.

I have a lot of patience for something things...but COVERING UP what we're really like in provate is something I have very little tolerance for.  I don't mean I think evertyhing should be braodcast; I just mean knowing who we are and what our weaknesses are should be something we can handle and share with others.

We're all weak in some ways.  That's okay.   Those who grew up in families where weakness was despised end up turning out not so great.  Well, they might look great from the outside, but once you see within what's going on, behind the facade of perfectioin is a lot of pain, woundedness and inability to deal.

I say all this to expalin a bit why I am sharing some of these tid bits about a former very important female figure.  Hilary seems to have the lurking issue of some pretty bad stuff inside of her as this article shines a bit of light.   Maybe Hilary suffers from D.I.D.  If she does, it isn't fun.

Showing ourselves to be something we are not makes my stomach churn with disgust.  I am an exorting type person and love showing the best foot forard...apprearcnes matter to me but mostly I care that the apprearances be transparent.  I remember a friend suprorising us one christmas.  I was very discouraged about a good many things and felt no joy whatsoever abou tthe chaos of a day of gluttony and frivoloty.  I had let eveyrthing go, including myself, certain NO ONE would see.  THEN CAME THE KNOCK.

My friend was gracious and I was horrified; I don't think I had EVER had I let my home get so bad.  Recovering from two near death experiences after bringing twin boys into the world via cecearian, I was not in a good place in my life.

I don't really know my neighbors.  I wonder once in a while what our life looks like from their perspective.  I don't much care what they think, as I am busy to bursting with handling exuberant life with six children under toe; there is almost always more toys (etc) in the yard than I'd like; and I'm certain my occasional raised voice echos throughout the woods and neighborhood.

What I don't want to be is phoney.  I don't want to represtent myself as one thing and be another.  I don't always know HOW to be myself and am on an exciting adventure liearning, about it (link to Who Am I post) .  I was very used to people who represent themselves one way yet are different behind closed doors.

Character matters.  How we treat people is of utmost imporance. I have known people claim to do and be and believe all sorts of things who act like apes to those they perceive as being weaker.  I am espcially disgusted by that and work much to lift up those around me who are weaker.  I submt we are all weak and all strong.  SOme of us are good at something while being dafta nd inept at other things.  That's just life.  When we're plagued by fear someone will discovere we aren't really as strong as we pretend, we are living a very dark life.

I ahve always apprecaited popel who are honest about thei rjunk and struggles.  It's so refereshing to hear a wife say, "I really love my husband, but I'm having a hard time respecting him."  BINGO!  Being honest doesn't solve the problem but it sure makes friendship feel more comfortable.

It takes some time to be able to know our wekenssas and have wrods fro them.  I am on that journey, too.  I'll share more about that another day.


I don't recommend these books if you're wanting to get dirt on someone who is running for office, but instead rather to give you a change to reada bout her characher.  You decide if she's really DOING things based on who she is, or if she's putting on a show.  You decide.   To me, it looks as though she spends a lot of time talking down to people who she deems beneath her.

As I have had that experience throughout my life, that is not the kind of leader I will follow.  I think it's important to have certain criteria for selecting leaders to do the work which needs to be done.

Dr. Ben Carson shares about some of the background with HIlary's reasons for doing what she does in public.  While I think the entire speech is certainly worth your 15 minutes, to hear the bits about her, go forward to 


For further examination:

The journalist gone filmmaker  Dinesh D'Souza who made 2 films on Barack Obama was imprisoned for 8 months afterward. Then he learned about Progressivism. His new film, "Hillary's America" opens tomorrow (Friday) in select theatres. If film does well this opening weekend, more theatres across the nation will show it. Anybody going? To my TC friends, new Carmike theatre has 5 show times.





Click below to watch the short but jam packed official movie trailer for  
"Hillary's America, The Secret History of the Democratic Party" which opens nation wide in select theaters tomorrow, July 22, 2016.


To see show times, find theater locations and buy tickets, click here



Rush Limbaugh shares his shock at being wrong about Dinesh D'Souza.



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Stay tuned for part 3.

~Kate M.





Thursday, September 25, 2025

Building ~ A New Season

 Thank you for stopping here at Exuberant for Life!  I’m so glad you are here.  

I started EFL in 2016 to focus on sharing blogs, podcasts, digital graphics (art) and more, all with the hope of sharing video content eventually.   As child-rearing and health issues took center stage, I wrote and spoke what I could while focusing on my 1st priorities.  Many years have passed, and as these blogs are bursting with content I am now ready to transition into sharing via different methods.  These blogs will remain for now as an archive of sorts, and occasionally as I find unpublished content I may add here for future reference.  My goal is to expand to write books on various topics, while building a subscription base at Substack, and develop a robust Youtube channel.  


Please feel free to dig around here and on the connected blog sites, take whatever is helpful and share anything you want to.  If you’re able to leave a tip, that would be fantastic.  You can also become a Patron to contribute financially to our digital content.  We also have online shopping available with items created by our artistic family members.  Check out links below to give into my work.


My Journal 2008


My Latest Venture

During the decades of rearing our young children and tending to our big family, my energies for writing were minimal.  Now that the youngest are nearing young adulthood and almost 13, I have a lot more time to get into the depths of perspectives I so enjoy through the mode of written words.  In order to bless my family too, I decided to leave all blog content here for free, while allowing readers to subscribe for $7 a month to my written articles over at Substack.  

We have searched for ways to experience win/win/win options.  This new way forward gives: 

1) Me the pleasure (when I have extra time and bandwidth from tending to family and home) of being able to write to my hearts content and share what bubbles with my dear readers. 

2) Readers get to follow along the written journey as I share from heart, soul and mind.  

3) My family gets the benefit of financial provision by way of your subscription.  

I really like win/win/win scenarios and am thrilled to finally be putting it all together.  

Note: as of today I am laying all the foundations and digital connections required for Substack, as well as getting the YouTube channel ready  where we will begin releasing content any day.  

There is a back log of material waiting to be edited and uploaded, and it finally seems like things are in order, the time is right and Spirit says NOW.  

Thank you for following along for free this long.  PLEASE wander around here in blogger as much as you'd like, here and at my other blogs: The Missing GenerationRearing Trauma, and at Hope for Narcissism.  

To get more into the depths with me via my writing, which is my passion, please consider subscribing below today.  I offer a free week trial in case you would like that.

As always, I bless you to seek the Holy Spirit for His leadership, direction, comfort, correction, peace, attunement, and joy for your life.  

You are adored 
(no matter what).

~Kate Mazur
From the Castle (our 700 square foot home on a hilly, sand duned-forrest)
Midwest USA
in honor of the life of Charlie Kirk 
SLG finishing its current season

Thursday, July 31, 2025

Doing What You Love ~ Healing in Real Time

As I worked to take several pounds of shredded cabbage which we acquired from the food rescue truck earlier this week, I put on a video to keep me moving in my tiny kitchen while sons and daughter do their things nearby.  

Having long been on the search for understanding in order to heal-to-wholeness from daunting home life growing up, I have felt very clearly that CPTSD is what I have been dealing with inside of me - nerves, cells, brain, emotions and body.  

I like the Crappy Childhood Fairy's way of stating it's "childhood" ptsd...

So many videos I have heard...and many even this week, as I work to sort out what's going on.  Sometimes I am injecting the information like I'm Neo plugged into the Matrix and getting rapid downloads...

Assimilating it all, and integrating the knowledge and wisdom into understanding seems to be a more than full time work, which continues to produce great fruit, encouragement and lurches forward.

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When Mom was arrested and diagnosed with Cluster B personality disorder a few years ago, it confirmed what I had been studying as I chased the Holy Spirit's leader and had been learning about NPD.  

As some intense things are coming into my understanding this past couple of weeks, after decades of prayer and more than a year of intensive warfare praying (thank you Dan Duval!), so much is coming together!

In the video (below), H.P. expresses what so many of us who were raised in narcissistic family systems have needed, which is to take time, energy, effort and care in order to DEVELOP ourselves as a person- as an individual with needs and wants, likes and loves, etc.  


Arthur Burk put that concept into practical detail over at THESLG, and I highly recommend it for anyone who was reared to be a commodity, or has a close loved one who was.  


Who knew I'd find this video just moments after it was posted? 


When You Feel Unworthy Of It

by Heide Priebe

Who would have thought it was a Holy Spirit initiated blessing for me as I was following along in the random flow of a morning full of a variety of activities which delighted my soul?  

What I know for certain, is that on this journey of relying on, obeying, trusting in and clinging to Jesus, who ascended so that the Indwelling God could be released into this fallen world, my Deliverer Has Already Come.  

The song below has continued to fan faith, hope, and love within as I seek to love God and receive His love into myself.

Friday, April 26, 2024

Time Passed

Worship Song #1 for This Session

Hello you!

Following the advice of a mentor, our family embarked on a two year project, which I alluded to in the post just below this one.  

As it winds down and we look forward to serving for another two years, I pause to reflect and look at so many other projects which have my heart's attention.  

Sharing with you here on this blog is one of them.  

A friend recently asked for a print out of this, in order to share it with some new friends.

As I looked through the massive amounts of files on my MacBook, renewed faith, hope and love sparked for working here on EFL.  

I see the wisdom in having cleared some items off my schedule, freeing up time and bandwidth to tend to this place, which often gets forgotten in the day to day living when I feel like less than a conqueror.

Hearing of a friend's recent diagnosis, I'm reminded that learning to feel our feelings literally helps avoid life threatening diseases, which pop up due to our inability to know what to do with these invisible appendage-like realities (aka feelings/emotions).

Whether we believe they are the bane of our existence and shut ourselves off from a source of life within us (which needs to be managed, and tended like a garden), or cling to our excuse to carry on as if they are not there, our feelings MUST be dealt with less we perish.  To those who shame others for learning to feel them, death waits ready to envelope them.  It humbles me to remember that our loving God is the one who sets life and death in front of us each day, whispering (nudging) us to choose life.  Respecting whichever we choose, He has set it up for us to reap from whatever we decide.

According to those who know more than me, every addiction and (almost?) every disease is caused by not attuning to our innards - gut and emotions.  In our western culture, we are taught to ignore these life-lines, and praised for summoning the disconnect which  results from attempting to hack off a very living (and vital) part of us.

As I ponder wellness, wholeness and where our culture stands in terms of emotional maturity, I am reminded that sharing what we've learned about it all might just be THE most important thing we can leave behind as a legacy for future generations.  Significant deeds which we've accomplished will pale in comparison to what can be shared in places like this, which can be passed along in order to point to the One who exists beyond all realms.  

It's to Him that I continue to surrender.

Oh, and along those lines of facing the tumults within, I'm thankful for whomever put Corrie ten Boom's video blurbs onto Youtube shorts.  

In a recent one, which just happened to come across my feed "randomly" the other day as I pondered the deepest betrayal of my life ---which seems SO hard to overcome---  I marveled as Corrie explained that she COULD NOT forgive.  

She explained that only the Holy Spirit within us can empower us to do that.

RIGHT.  

Wow.  

So now I've changed my position.  

Rather than begging for ability to forgive, I recognize He has answered my prayer of late, which has been to teach us how to love our enemies.  

I cannot do any of that, and now I do not feel ashamed or condemned!!  It's not humanly possible.  

Thankfully, I am reporting to you, Dear Reader of this simple blog which sits upon this website in the regions of internet-land, that I have flung it God-ward, confessing that I cannot do it- no matter how much time passes or efforts are given to talk it through, or any other well-intentioned tactics are deployed.  

I have no power in my own Kate-ness to forgive all that needs to be.  

Without the Vine I can do nothing.

I CANNOT.

I CANNOT.

I CANNOT.

How freeing that is.  

WHAT A WEIGHT I have been under, believing I had to do it in my own power and strength, and will and emotion.  

Trying, trying, trying, I have nearly driven myself into a faithless-frenzy.  Whatever is not done in faith is sin, right?  Yikes.  What a mess I've been in, not even seeing it.

Is this the root of why I have not been able to get weight to budge??  It will not surprise me at all if the astonishing stress of trying to forgive with my own woefully inadequate capability is THE cause of what the doctors have not been able to pinpoint.

If you're struggling to forgive, you might like 

1) telling God you can't and won't

2) asking for His power to do it, 

3) asking Him to teach you how to trust Him for the timing and the power and resources and RESULTS.  

What a waste to try and try in our own strength.  What pride is this?

Somehow, this has suddenly made all the difference to me.  It also reminds me how sharing true principles for posterity is a REALLY, really good idea.

With the shifts this good news will inevitably bring, I might be at the point where I can see to do both projects: the one we've renewed for another two years, and continuing to build here at Exuberant for Life.

I like the idea more than I can express.  Taking what has God's life in and adding value to it has become my favorite thing.



As I ponder aspects of being God's kid, my husband's wife and the mom to our kids, I revel that there are SO many principles bursting to be utilized.  I think another word for it is WISDOM, and I feel like that's God's most exquisite gift.

Watering this season's seedings, I recalled hearing Joyce Meyer describe how God would wait to help her until she stopped struggling.  Feeling this lesson becoming my own reality, I see it is as though He is a complete Gentleman...waiting until I ask for help, allowing me to struggle long.  Knowing Romans 5 wisdom mysteries, I suppose there is good that comes from trying to no avail.  What a great burden I have ditched and flung off.  I remain forever indebted to the guy who taught us to discern between productive pain (the Romans 5 kind) and the OTHER kind

I cannot forgive HER, or THEM, or him (or her or him, etc).  

I CANNOT and I won't try anymore.

Instead, I cling to the One who is WONDERFUL.  

I don't have to TRY anymore.  

*sigh

(...and she walks off stage, having finished her soliloquy....)





More healing news from this week:



Know you are adored...not for anything you have done, are doing, or that you will do.  

YOU, dear person, are adored because of WHO YOU ARE.  

Your very essence and being is adored. 

Period.

So there. 

With love and respect,
Kate M

-From the writing studio/seed central/video game hub/living room of the Castle- on a sandy hill within a forest- which is stuffed full of people who eat and clean and do lessons around me while I natter away at you.  :)  

Feel free to say HI by email over at exuberantforlife@gmail.com. You can also find me on facebook, twitter and truth social.  I'd love to hear from you.

p.s.  I've just had prayer time and feel 2nd layer of understanding coming.  In order to get THIS one out to you, I'll post now as is, and then hope to capture the essence of what is coming now.  Thanks for traveling along with me.  You are appreciated.  

Tuesday, April 26, 2022

Before the Foundations

As Mrs F. and I recounted today the conversation between me and the tall guy, we went deeper into the idea he brought up this past Sunday: that our Constitution is not the foundation on which our great republic was built, but rather it is the BLUEPRINT.  

So liking this concept, and seeing all sorts of significant connections to all sorts of issues we need to face in this generation, she reminded me again of the importance of the book she found on A.B.'s book shelf this past autumn.

"America's Providential History", she explains, details the faith our founding fathers had.  She said studying it will help us as we go forward in order to think through going forward with our Republic.  

She's loaning us her copy tonight.  You can get a copy for yourself, here using our affiliate link.  If you purchase anything through our amazon link, we will earn a small commission while you pay nothing extra.  

If you do decide to read the book, or if you have already, we would love to hear your thoughts. 

Wednesday, March 30, 2022

Emotional Healing 101 (Made Simple)

In all my years of working on emotional and inner healing, I have sought and come across MANY articles, audio blurbs and videos.  I have read, studied, practiced, prayed, sang, danced, declared, wept...all within the processes of healing and learning about it.  

Having first started with blessing my spirit-man for many years, I now feel this is THE most practical, simple and straightforward message on emotional healing that I have heard so far.  I feel he has a very good grasp of the spiritual, physical and emotional issues as well as the foundational scriptural principles.  

While I do not pretend to know the intricacies, I would like to add a few more principles (truths).

According to Dr. Gabore Mate, almost all disease (etc) is caused by us NOT listening to our gut.  

Pastor and Dr. Jim Wilder says all addiction is caused by the inability to regulate emotions.  

Dr. Caroline Leaf says something like 85% of all sickness is healable and our DNA is the starting point.

Additionally, I have added to the second step of Praying Medic's method.  As well as asking for God to heal the soul wounds the feelings are triggering, I ask Him to heal all the spirit, body, time and land wound associated with that wound.

Praying Medic Emotional Healing

Tuesday, August 3, 2021

Accepting Things

As I ponder the changes which happen in various seasons of life, I feel like sharing with you a little bit about what is happening on my end.

As you might know, it has been nearly three years since my Mom was arrested and sent for psychiatric evaluation against her will.  The results of that have been significant for me for a myriad of reasons.

Having "proof" that I was reared by a mentally ill, emotionally volatile, impoverished single woman has been enormously helpful.  I guess it feels a bit like vindication, as I have been speaking out about it since I was about five years old (literally!).  

Having been raised in an environment where oodles of my needs did not get met and having been exposed to a whole lot of things which were not helpful (and many which were deeply hurtful), it has taken me all my life to feel like I have my feet underneath me properly.  I have had to learn dozens of skills of caring for self which most people, thankfully, take for granted and learn in their early years.

I was not deceived; I knew things were NOT going as they ought to have.  My sense of God's ways and justice were on high alert, helping me to always know that what I was experiencing was NOT right and not God's intention for me.  Principles were being violated all over the place.  My Mother's diagnoses helped me gain an understanding that I have not been crazy all this time!

The past few years have been a series of processes whereby I have faced reality in oh-so many ways.  While God rigged it for me to study and learn about some of the problems before the facts came to light, the majority of the inner healing has come in the past few months as I have been able to take a deep breath (literally, finally) and enjoy my Maker, my self and the abundant life He continually provides.  

Learning to receive life from Him and understanding what life is -and is not -has been another huge aspect of my maturing process.  

During this time I put everything online on hold.  I pulled away from online groups and people I respect and admire at a time when the whole world seemed to be connecting online more than ever.  

I started getting out more physically while everyone else seemed to be shut in.  

My years of having been sort of a house hermit in order to nurture self and home and kin proved to be beneficial.  Tending to home fires and setting house in order paid off and now I finally feel like I can come here and say something that will be worth saying.

It feels good to be returning with what feels like a completely new inner world.  

If ever you or anyone you care about needs to stop the busyness of life and slow down, I think it really is worth the effort.  Time taken to receive and open those good and perfect gifts will never be regretted.  

Looking forward, I hope to share more of the specifics I have learned in order to give testimony as to how good God is and how fantastically His ways work.  

He- and His principles- still delights me continually, in the midst of having just been through some of the darkest nights of my soul's life.  

More later.  

Thanks for reading.  :)

~Kate 
Exuberant for Life  
Lake Ann
Michigan
USA
August 3, 2021


Sunday, May 16, 2021

News from Jerusalem

 Our friend Netanel has given an update on Gaza, what's happening and what is coming.  He shared the audio link with me and I am sharing it with you.  Feel free to take a listen here:  Gaza Today and Where it Is Leading To by Netanel Nickalls.

Thursday, May 6, 2021

Update: May 2021


As I continue to get things in order, today I created vision boards for myself.  I think the lie from the original garden morphs it's way into my days very subtly...did God really say enjoy Him, enjoy good food and family and friends and that life is VERY good?  Or did He say everything should be a never-ending struggle in futility?

As I ponder the principle of sowing and reaping (which I think is a direct cousin if not the very same as the law of attraction), I want to reap GREAT things.  I was reminded by Praying Medic's most recent podcast that we are transformed by the renewing of our minds.

Right. All this sugar and foods which harm and other such things are taking up the place where GOOD THINGS ought to....so I am shifting things in order to put things first.  

Yesterday I ordered a new bible.  My old faithful one has been squeezed dry and so I am eager to begin again the habit of diving into the fresh and living Word with the One who IS the Word.  Word!  

As you can see here, I have made several designs to put before my eyes to remind me of whose I am, who I am and what I want in my life: to enjoy God and myself and those He's given to bless my life and to look and feel great.  Those are simple desires, and yet I have work to do in order to get there.

I listened to a couple of fantastic podcasts yesterday about goals for health and morning routines.  It helped me understand realistic processes (which are often a complete anathema to me) and allowed me to see how I can go forward honoring some bits of my old self while embracing my now self so that I can become my whole self.

There are emotions to regulate, spiritual warfare to battle, truths to embrace, strongholds to evict and extra energy to burn.  I am going to keep before me the reminder of the 80/20 principle...I need to receive 80% and give 20%.  This shift alone will be LIFE changing for me.  As my friend Arthur mentioned years ago, when you give, give, give and do not receive much, ya run out.  It's simple math.

So, to continue combating the Jezebel nastiness of refusing to receive and to go in the opposite spirit of that, I will keep on changing my life so I can give from an overflowing cup.  It feels like the right time to let go of a frenzied mindset, embrace being addicted to peace and allowing myself to know and FEEL that God is good all.the.time.  

Oh, and listening to bits of me that have a bit to say about some pain is a plan too...

How about you?  How is your May faring?

Wednesday, April 7, 2021

An Update

 Hello!

As I ponder sharing myself and of our lives through Exuberant for Life, I feel such tug and pull. Is it possible the time for feeling free to share regularly will come and that I'm just in the midst of *still* a LOT of emotional healing? Likely.
Getting my house in order has taken more than a decade. In my ignorance and immature zeal I thought it would take a week. That was before I knew anything much about the inner world and the copious amounts of healing needed for oh-so-many wounds.
The other day as the Tall Guy and I chatted, I shared with him what my friend MB is helping me to realize: the journey to being whole is exhausting, time consuming and often feels like battling monsters. While it's WORTH the time and energy (and whatever resources are required), it is a bit mind boggling just how much the processes seem to hinder what used to be considered 'normal life.' He said that is why people choose NOT to deal with it, and in a flash I understood!
The breaker anointing we both have is no small thing, and it is for our posterity that we keep learning and clinging to the One who knows and who gives us strength to continue. Imparting will come, I hope (for I long to get to that work!), yet for now I must be content to just BE, and to keep receiving from the Life Giver and to do the work set before me each day.
I suspect the Ruler portion of my spirit is finally getting to express itself. The inner-man healing work which began more than six years ago is resulting in things like fresh curtains being installed to replace worn out blankets for window coverings as well as setting up simple and good looking systems so we can do what we were designed to do here -create! play! work! love! rest!
I am SO glad to know about productive pain....the kind which hurts but which has a redemptive and good-for-me purpose. Though it doesn't make anything easier, it reminds me to keep taking courage as I face all these invisible and unnamable issues, day in and day out while simultaneously caring for self, family, home and a relationship or two beyond these walls. Courage is a resource I have come to appreciate.
As I keep doing the work which I cannot really name, see or understand very well, I often think of YOU and the journey you are on.
I'm reminded too of the holy work we do to break general cycles of iniquity and I rejoice that there is healing for the soul.
Keeping on,
Kate